I Am With You Always
By Accepted By His Amazing Grace
Accepted By His Amazing Grace was created to encourage others through devotionals, Christian poems, scriptures and fellowship. I pray you find encouragement and inspiration through our bible verses, poems, and devotionals. ~Jeanette The Lord bless thee, and keep thee: The Lord make his face shine upon thee, and be gracious unto thee: The Lord lift up his countenance upon thee, and give thee peace. Numbers 6:24-26
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Someone I know posted a Thursday blessing which led me here. I am going through a rough patch right now I am legally blind, my husband left me 3 weeks ago after 9 years I’m almost 67 years old and I feel so alone, that was until I read your post and I prayed your prayer and I realize God is always with me. It’s just that I forget that everyday and I talk to him all the time I just don’t feel him but I have faith knowing that he’s there listening. After my husband left my air conditioner went out and it’s Florida no one should have to do without air conditioning lol I live on a fixed income but praise God some strangers got together and bought me a window unit. My lawn mower stopped working but I now have a belt and blades to go on it and hopefully I will find somebody who can put them on. Since my husband and I both belong to the same church it wasn’t easy going to church knowing that everybody knew. It was like I was Satan sitting in the same seat that I always sit in but everybody just looked at me and waved. I know the Corona virus is going around, I actually moved to the back of the church and people started noticing me. Because people were walking by and saying oh you moved to the back and I just smile. My husband had a ruptured disc and for 3 months I waited on him hand and foot. And then when he was better he decides to leave. I took my vows seriously especially at an older age, I thought I would live out my days with someone not that I needed them. His kids never liked me and that caused a lot of problems and I told him that once he was well that he could either tell his kids that I was his wife and I deserved a little more respect or he could go live with them. So he chose the latter. I have family but we’ve never been close. My daughter lives across the street with my three grandchildren and are currently renovating a mobile home on my property to move into. I don’t see them that often even though they live close to me and I doubt I’ll see them that much more when they move in on my property. I think they’re probably just waiting for me to die so it’ll all be theirs. I try to stay positive everyday but I don’t know why because I’m alone with my thoughts and I battle everyday. I pray and I don’t feel like I’m one of the good ones that’s going to make it to heaven. I wonder why God would let me live in hell on Earth and then send me to hell. It seems like I’ve always had to buy my love because once I had nothing I had no one. And I’ve always been generous, I’ve always gave. And I know I’m rambling on but it’s so easy whenever you can just talk and it prints the words for you. so if there’s any misspelled words it’s because of spell check. You may think that I’m just having a pity party and I may be I don’t know. I just needed somebody to talk to and somebody to pray for me. And I know that getting on Facebook and saying prayers needed or please pray God knows the situation that people will say they’re praying but really they’re not. I’ve also noticed that nobody calls me anymore and if I post something on Facebook my church family doesn’t even respond. Now how crazy is that… He is no better than I am, he says I have issues but I put up with his issues and if I ever said anything about it he ran to his family and told them and that’s probably why they didn’t never like me. His mother told me one time may she rest in peace that I had to watch what I said and watch what I done because he would run to his children and tell them and of course to his mama too. But I always felt like I’m grown I don’t have to watch what I say and I don’t have to watch what I do unless it was wrong in the sight of God. I’m sorry I’m really sorry but I talked to God about this everyday I just needed for somebody else to hear it please have a blessed day and pray for me!
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I am so sorry you are going through this. It is hard to be sick and not have someone be there for you. Just remember you are not alone. The Lord loves you always, no matter what and He is with you all the time day or night. I have lost the hearing in one of my ears due to a disease called Menieres’ Disease. It causes me to have a lot of days that I don’t feel like doing anything because of balance issues. That can be depressing but when I feel this way I get my bible and read and I talk to the Lord. It always makes me feel better and see things in a better light. God has a way of changing things for us over time. I will be praying for you. Remember God has a purpose for you and He loves you so much He took your place. He loves us all that much, no one is excluded. May God Bless You and give you strength, joy and peace!
Jeanette
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Your cards are so beautiful and inspirational
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Your cards are so beautiful and inspirational that I would like to know if we can purchase them.
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Beautiful prayer.
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